My Current Life

I never expected that my life would be so based upon emotions, or should i have expected that? Right now it feels like a setback, a handy-cap, a disability. How is it that I befriend people who do not obtain the same emotional capacity as my own? There is no one else who can completely understand me except myself and I'm just figuring this all out presently. I've experienced the most disgusting pain of letting others take advantage. It's hard to fall into someone who's ego is even bigger than my own. I am naturally humble, yet he thinks he is god. I am a better being then he this is easy to see. I never want to cause harm to others yet he makes a living off destroying the lives of others through drug addiction. I've realized now were way too diverse. My life is compassion and nurturing not clever tricks. No one I've met deserves the devotion I possess. Even with this knowledge how is it that i still have the deepest love for him? He is my weakness, and I've never had one before.