Current

Many things have changed within the past few months. Things I always wished for but never thought would actually happen. The person I've been in love with for 2 years has finally gotten serious. He surprised me completely. Things were not going well, and we weren't talking since Christmas, and at that point I had given up and was trying to move on. I kept my mind off him by seeing other people. I had accepted that he wasn't right for me because he could never give me what I needed from him. I had purposely avoided all contact with him as this would be the only way to stop loving him. Then one night, for business reasons I needed him to meet up with me. What was only suppose to be a brief encounter turned into a night of hanging out just like we use to. I made him see that I didn't need him and that I was wanted by many. After this night he stuck around. I was very shocked when in the morning while I was terribly hung over he held me close and said the words that he fought so hard to say before, "I love you." I knew he meant it. Shortly after this I was trying to find a new place to live and it was really difficult. I ended up agreeing to move in with some of my friends but that didn't work out due to miscommunication about finances. At this point my love said I should just move in with him. I wasn't even sure if it was real because it was so unexpected of him. This proved he had grown up a little and was ready for something serious. It was exactly what I always wanted from him, to be serious and commit to me. Its been a month and a half now that we have been living together and supporting one another. We are a fantastic match and I have never been so happy. It's so satisfying to finally have him. I envision a future with him and he sees it too. There is this meant to be feeling that I've always felt and that is why through all the pain he has put me through, I stuck around and forgave him for everything he had ever done to me. I think he recognized this value in me and realized he would never find someone quite like me.