Frozen

Help me turn the feelings away
Surely this is not okay
I don't know what to think anymore
This dream has become a horror 
My whole body is sore 
With emotional strain
In my head a constant rain
Of paranoia deep down
I need to bawl up round
To try and sooth my heart
And place it far apart
From the destroyers that find me
How am I so blind to see
How people can truly be
I want my heart to be free
From all attachment
I want it to be sent
Out if this world 
Isolated and swirled
Around safety and compassion
Give me my rations 
Of emotional protection 
A mandatory inspection
To fix the pieces I've been losing
The parts that are bruising
Soak up all the blood I've lost
I don't care the cost
Make me strong 
Because everything is wrong
And there is no song
I can sing
Or poem I can ring
That can fix this thing
Or make it better
So I'll just write this letter 
To no one in particular
Now I'll sob and slur 
As my eyes go blur
And I fad out
Taking a sleepy route
To temporarily forget about
My self destructive doubt